美丽回忆

The great leap forward

2009-09-27T08:14:00.000+08:00

For the whole of last month, I was busy splitting up myself into two parts: alternating between 1) taking care of my bf, walking around with him everyday and cheering him up after a suffering period of recovery and boredom; 2) playing the good role of being a student.

After 3 weeks, my bf was feeling better and was able to move around. He accompanied me to school everyday. Things were slowly moving back to normal and just as I thought I could concentrate on my studies, something happened again.

Troubles invite itself again.

There's a saying that says: don't ever dodge trouble, especially those that came knocking on your door.

It has been settled. Though there's alot of negative feelings involved, I'm glad about everything that has happened. We understand each other even deeper and are closer ever. =)

Has the picture painted too prefectly?

2009-08-06T11:31:00.005+08:00

Our 31st anniversary.

no one will understand how much we've gone through.

I am confused. Am i expecting and demanding too much?

thoughts

2009-07-22T02:22:00.001+08:00

Your comfort makes me feel uncomfortable and uneasy- it's as if a sign of thunderstorm coming.

The calmness before a thunderstorm is the scariest period. Not the thunderstorm itself.

A better me

2009-06-23T11:41:00.004+08:00

I can't believe that I have been slacking at home for the past one and a half month, that's like half of my holidays and I am going to continue slacking for the next one and a half month. Do something, go work...etc, people have been telling me that. But it just doesnt make any economic sense to enter the workforce now judging on the low hourly wage of $5-$5.50. I certainly don't think my one hour worth just $5.50, (after teaching tuition). So I shall continue to slack and based my expenses on tuitioning. haha

I have always been complaining about the boredom and slacking away my life for the past one and a half month. But, thinking back, I realised that it's not a bad thing afterall. I have been busy catching up with my darling friends, which we have totally no time meeting up just for a coffee when cirriculum starts and projects start to knock in, hanging around, bitching about anything and everything under the sun. These are enjoyable moments that can't be exchanged with $5.50. Not only that, gaining knowledge by reading economist every morning (never has imagined myself doing that) gives me great satisifaction! (trying to emphasize the point that this cant be possible if I am selling myself for $5.50/hour) haha.

Philosophy: The grass on the other side is always greener, knowing how to be satisfied and be contented is more important.

2008-12-05T21:20:00.002+08:00

I appear to have everything that people wish for. But why am I still feel empty inside?

People seems to take into account everything they have seen from the surface, does that fraction they've seen account for the whole picture?

"不开心的日子有谁能明白? 有谁能了解?"

i hate left

2008-11-06T00:47:00.000+08:00

I hate left. I guess no one in this world would ever hate left as much as I do.

I've encountered countless of these experience on my left which attribute to my hatre of left. I used to think that it wasn't a big deal. I used to think I can live as if nothing happened and everything is normal. but no, times and times people have reminded me of it. Time and time that I've reminded myself about it, be it in a discussion or a conversation.

I dun want to be standing there, smiling foolishly, pretending that i've heard and understood the content anymore.

I hate left.

2008-08-18T13:44:00.001+08:00

love u =)

O week!

2008-08-18T13:31:00.000+08:00

that's rickson and aaron before inaug

day 0! qianfu's birthday!

day 0: in soci room resting after working so hard!

day 1: sitting in a circle

2008-08-18T13:27:00.001+08:00

before going off for flag!

my econs kaki and cecilian! hahs

INAUGURATION DAY!

OG photo!

2008-08-18T13:25:00.000+08:00

sentosa day! we're all councilors from taufeek!

flag day! got bullied by vannessa!

war games day!

2008-08-18T13:22:00.000+08:00

early in the morning! my stomach jus cant go without food! haha

the sweet julia and gail, with my yummy cup noodles!

dear aunty huisin waving with the 'huat' stick

such a small world! lol

2008-07-21T11:50:00.000+08:00

Starting from left is pro ice-skater shaun, followed by funny Joanna in white, behind me is crapper gary, next to me is pretty serene in brown, next is cute huisin (who wore a dress to iceskating, later on then she put on the jeans), next is best ogl Van in green, followed by pretty weijun in blue and ending off with the super enthu gal, marilyn.

We're busying teaching huisin how to ice skate! so Funny!

Behind us are gary and boon keng!

2008-07-21T11:43:00.002+08:00

I love this photo! vv. NICE! Taken during precamp.

We're combined with this OG to play games through out the precamp. Larissa was super on!

Taking a photo with Hai dai pose.

Before ice skating starts! Camwhoring! left is cecila, my roomie for artscamp. Right is marilyn, my econs kaki soon-to-be.

thinking, thinking and thinking

2008-07-20T23:28:00.002+08:00

After one and half years, I am still not giving him what he wants -- my trust. I seriously dont know what's the problem with myself, really. Times and times again, the root of all arguements is due to me not trusting him. Why? A question that I've asked myself umpteen times, and I simply can't answer that, or rather, I don't want to let anyone know about the answer, including myself.

Until yesterday, I finally told him why - inferiority. He told me alot of things, seriously alot, more than even I can absorb. But I know what's he is trying to tell me. The rest is up to myself.

I was talking to someone about it yesterday, as to why I am feeling inferior. I found out that it's actually those self-defence kind of mentality. I was deeply hurted in a relationship once, and seriously, no one will know how much it takes for me to stand up again. But since I've picked myself up, I shall not let anything affects me anymore. I've woken up. I will not let my past affect my present life. I will open up myself. I will be strong. I will trust him. Give me some time. I will not disappoint him again.

I got myself the ticket to freedom!

2008-07-12T23:03:00.002+08:00

I PASSED my driving test today! I was so nervous during the test that I got confused between right and left! Worse thing happened was during my directional change where I was supposed to turn to the right, I turn towards the left instead! Luckily I was quick to realise my mistake and I did a double reverse with a sheepish-smiling face, hopefully the traffic police wont deduct my points. LOL =D

Anyways, I am now a certified and qualified driver!

I CAN DRIVE NOW!!!! =)

*Just came back from eeyore's room! A happy night! PS. please don't keep eeyore in the dark cupboard anymore =D

Bless me luck tml!

2008-07-11T21:46:00.002+08:00

After months and months of training, hundreds and hundreds of hours, thousands and thousands of minutes, millions and millions of seconds...

FINALLY...

Tomorrow is my DRIVING TEST!

*shivering*

*biting fingernails*

*clutching tightly to my pooh pooh eeyore*

I am now busying psycho-ing myself that I can drive confidently, I can overcome my fear of the traffic police, I will not mount kerb, I can treat everything like a normal lesson and most importantly, I CAN pass!

For the past one week, I've been going back for revision, with two sessions continously daily without failed. Everyone thought I'm crazy and that lousy whenever I told them about it. Nevertheless, I don't think I am that bad to the extent of doing this. I just want to train myself to endure 2 lessons of driving without feeling tired mentally and physically, so that I can endure through warm up, the actual test and the stress pressing on my shoulder with a traffic police sitting beside me. Hope i'll pass! =) Jiayou!!

I went to take a nice passport size photo today. My colleague told me that I must x10000 get a nice photo for my driving license, as the license will follow me through the rest of my life, just like my IC! lols..

Hope tomorrow will be my last time going back to the driving centre! =)

*I am missing you right now! Can you feel it? =)

1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9.....OMG!

2008-07-06T20:59:00.002+08:00

Gosh, I've been dropping lots of hairs lately and has been quite a disturbing issue for me. Whenever I gently brush through my hairs with my fingers, more than 5 strands of them will be on my palm. Early in the morning when I just woke up, there will be approx 10 strands of hair on my pillow. I didn't realise it until during the camp when my roomate told me that our room is full of my hairs. GOSH GOSH GOSH! What should I do? Is it because of the shampoo that I use? Is it because my diet? Is it because of being stressed up in work?

*Full of troubled thoughts*

Nevertheless, I am happy that my contract has ended! I'll have more time to do things that I've wanted to do. Things like packing up my room, having so personal time to myself, letting my mind and soul rest and considering to take up yoga! Taking up Yoga has always been my on my wanted-to-do list, but somehow always have no time to search for a course and is quite expensive. Maybe I should consider practising by myself at home, which I've been doing few years back. It really helps you to reach inner and outer peace! GREATLY RECOMMEND TO EVERYBODY! lols.

2008-07-05T09:59:00.000+08:00

Receiving the lovely notes from our ogl and councilors!

Girls posing macho and guys posing 'gu liang'

Whole OG with our house i/c! doris and anhong

End of suffering!

2008-07-04T15:06:00.002+08:00

Whee~ Today marks the end to my boring work! I wun miss anything here, but i am definitely going to miss my colleagues! They are the people who make my work more fun and keep me going! Otherwise, my 3 months here will be lifeless! Took alot of pictures with my colleague, Dawn. We have fun chitchatting and taking long breaks! Whoo~

End of story... =P

2008-07-03T08:35:00.001+08:00

My dear OG TAUFEEK! lol.. there is loads of pics coming up!

a day to remember!

2008-07-02T11:28:00.001+08:00

Happy 18th month anniversary DADDIE! MUACKS! =)

When are we ever satisfied?

2008-07-02T09:55:00.003+08:00

Don't take everything around you for granted. You may just lose them without even you knowing it. I nearly lost a friend whom I've known for 10 years. We haven't been keeping in contact ever since she has gone to UK to further her studies. The blame is on me. I have not been putting in effort to constantly reply her emails. The last time I've heard news about her was from maydeline 2 days ago. She've got a serious car accident.

She tried calling me after she became conscious, but my phone was not around me.

Finally, I managed to get in contact with her. After chatting over the phone, I got really really worried and feel so much for her. Her situtation was bad bad bad. She broke her pelvis and was unable to move, not even a slight movement from any parts of her body. If she moves, the pain will be so intense until she passes out. She has to stay on bed for the next 6 weeks or so, and has to rely on external support. Not only that, she has alot of issues to deal with, like family problems, financial issues and her education. I really feel very much for her.

The irony is, she sounded so cheery over the phone! Despite everything that has happened, she still is very positive towards life. I really admire her for that. I will never be as strong as her if I am the one facing all these. Imagine yourself alone in a unfamiliar land, no relatives and barely a few friends. You still have to trouble over financial issues and a broken family. I could probably gone mad if i were her. I still remember the first line she told me was, "I could have died, but I am lucky!" with her cheerful tone.

I felt so ashame of myself after I've talked to her. Here I am, with all the best given to me, I have a happy and intact family, a caring boyfriend, many nice friends around, and no need to be troubled over anything. Yet I am still not satisfied, still complaining and asking for more.

Often, we take things so much for granted until we are unable to see and feel the suffering of the less fortunate ones.

Next time, when you leave behind lots of unfinished food, think about the kids in Africa. When you complain of not having enough material goods, think of people who are less well-off than you. There are always people out there who are less fortunate than you. Remember to think about them before you do anything or complain about anything.

Arts camp- the house of love

2008-06-28T19:16:00.005+08:00

Yay! I am so glad that i've gone for the 5 days and 4 nights arts camp! It was truly a one-time experience in life. Seriously. I considered myself lucky for being able to go for this camp. Like what the seniors have said, you only lived once to be a freshie. It wouldn't be the same next year. Neither it will be the same if you only go for the the O-week, because there wun be staying over which means lesser time to be bonded and lesser fun involved.

Initially I did have my reservations for not going for the camp, even though I've already registered a place. Things like being afraid to go there alone, the activities involved, scare of meeting new people... kept swirling in my head. Nevertheless, i decided to step out of my comfort zone and go for it. I did not regret it.

Don't doubt the quality of friendship I've forged with the other 13 OGmates in just 5 days. We do everything together and constantly lookout/takecare of one another. We've already been missing each other and we are going to be friends through out the uni-life. And even though we're the slackest people around, we've won the best OG in the house. lol. I've no idea how it is ever possible, I guess is because we've the greatest OGL around. My OGL is awesome, i m amazed at the never-dying energy she has. Her enthusiasm kept the whole OG alive thoughout the most tiring time. Seriously, I've never seen a person like her. The whole OG has less than 10 hours of sleep throughout the camp and i bet she has only less than 5. Yet, she still so active and enthusiastic, keep cheering us on and joke with us. I am really truly impressed by her attitude!

The whole camp ended with the circle of friendship whereby all the freshies formed an outer circle and the councilors and OGLs formed an inner circle and shook everybody's hand. Before this, everyone, guys and girls alike, was already tearing because of the emo-talk. When this circle of friendship starts, everyone cried even more. To the OGLs and councilors, it was truly an achievement for them. It was the sense of satisfaction and knowing that their effort was not wasted that made them cry. To us freshies, it was the bond forged and every moment we've spent with each other that made us tear. You may wonder how is it ever possible that we can cry over such things. But yes, it's possible. Every little things that my OGmates do for me really touches my heart. I mean for a person u've merely know for a few days, there are many reasons for us not to care about him/her. But they did not. On the first day, i was 3 hours late and missed the ice breakers and learning of cheers. All my thoughts started to swirl in my head again. But when i reached my OG, they didn't look at me and exclude me like some alien appeared out of no where. Everyone smiled at me and taught me the cheers and took the trouble of repeating all the self introductions. I am touched!

Although this camp was fun, there are times whereby things are boring and I feel very low and tired. Day one, when i have not really open up and felt lonely, my daddie will be always there to cheer me on. He encouraged me to go for the camp when i told him about my reservations. Not only that, i was so touched by what he has done for me. He gave me a HUGE surprise the day before the camp, which he has been planning 2 weeks before. I really enjoyed the surprise you've planned for me. When i was totally shagged and exhausted after the camp has ended, you just appeared out of nowhere in the mrt station and hugged me from behind. You've waited for me for close to 2 hours even though you are having bad flu. I was really really touched deep down in my heart. Do you know that my OGmates told me how my eyes light up and how I blushed when i told them about you? You are everything that I can ever ask for. I love you! =)

Special thanks to sarly for lending me your pair of new shoes in camp and to siok for taking the effort to message me to ask how thing is even though it's 3 plus in the morning. Both of you are not forgotten! =)

something that perks me up alittle

2008-03-18T11:23:00.005+08:00

Someone forwarded this email to me today and it was quite lame actually. And since i am bored, it shall be my post today. I shall compliment the person who's behind this.

random shoutout

2008-03-18T11:13:00.002+08:00

I begin to see the light.

2008-03-04T22:05:00.000+08:00

=) =)

i smile...

finally...

he smile....

after all...

it's a sunny day...

Move on...

Everything will be great...

Everything is worthwhile...

=) ^^

2008-03-03T11:22:00.000+08:00

Ytd was our 14th month anniversary!

I saw his smile that day, a simple smile, but enough to make my day.

=)

i love you daddie.

believe in me, believe in urself.

=)

2008-02-28T22:02:00.000+08:00

Valentine's day!^

Dinner at changi village

2008-02-04T10:57:00.000+08:00

Woohoo! today's dinner was very interesting! there's one more person joining us for dinner! and tat's none other than daddie tay! lol..

This afternoon, daddie went with me to clean up my new house in changi heights togther with my sisS, mum and dad. Lol. It was one hell of a dirty house! me and daddie tay cleaned the kitchen and he scrub the gas stove and cupboard! Though it was tiring, we had fun! My younger sis entertained us by dancing to a tune! it was so hilarious! lol.

At about 7 pm, we finally done with cleanning up, we decided to drop by changi village and have dinner! At first daddie tay doesnt wan to go and insist on going home. But my mum and dad passionately welcome him to come along. After much 'ni ni wo wo' , he reluctantly agreed to go. We went to eat shark fins at thai village! At first he wasnt feeling comfortable around my family. But after awhile, i can feel him relaxing and begin to blend in. Lol. Although he cant realli understand cantonese, but he still can make out the meaning ocassionally! lol.

We enjoyed.

Apology to my frenz who i've promise to come and watch movie and dinner with. I am really sorry cos of the last minute disappearance. It was under those die or not die (no choice) circumstances. Hope u all understand! =)

One year and One month and is still counting!

2008-02-04T10:51:00.000+08:00

02/02/2008 marks our one year and one month anniversary! Happy 13th month daddie!

Sorry for all the quarrels that we have had during the past weeks. I know that things are really bad then and it affects everybody around us. Daddie, though we quarrelled alot during the past weeks, i still love you as much and it will never change! I will forever remember all the things that u've told me! I've matured and enlightened! I will hold on to the promise forever! Thanks for ur patience and love! Love you dearly! Muacks!

Pass in BTT!!!

2008-01-23T14:15:00.000+08:00

Went to take Basic theory test this morning and i got a PASS! HORRAY! lol.. I would say that BTT is very easy and i wonder how could anyone fail that. (hahax, i am qualified to yaya because i passed but if i failed, then it will be another story) whahax..

This strange thing happened when i was in the middle of the test....

Scenario 1:
I was seated at station number 24 and was quietly waiting for the test to start. Then this Malay lady came and seated diagonally across me. When she sat down and we made eye contact. Without a second, she was smiling to me like a long lost friend. I was confused, but still, i smiled back and i dared not look at her again.

Scenario 2:
Half way through the test (which i have already finished and was double checking the answer), i saw her taping the gentleman's finger beside this malay lady (about 40+ of age). Then she started pointed on her screen and look back at the gentleman's face. My guess was that she was not sure of the answer and was checking with the gentleman beside her. I saw him shaking his head and then look straight back into his monitor again, leaving the malay lady in a state of frustration. That sight was hilarous. Lol

Scenario 3:
In the next few second, she caught sight of me and start to attract her saviour's (me) attention.
She waved and mouthed all sort of things to attract my attention. I took pity of her and looked in her direction. True enough, she was stuck in an easy question and wanted me to give her the answer. She mouthed the question to me and asked me what the correct answer is, i bet she burned loads of calorie by doing that. I mouthed back to her a short answer and stared back into the monitor, not wanting to make eye contact with her ever again. In an attempt to get away from her quickly, i ended my test and waited for my result. A 'PASSED' was shown shortly after that, and i left the classroom immediately, without having time to feel happy. When i was outside the classroom, the next thing i did was to message everyone that i passed! YAY!

To all my fats! I passed by BTT! woohoo!

Payday is nearING!

2008-01-22T09:56:00.000+08:00

This morning Sunny (a perm staff in NLS) came in and asked us to count our hours because it's time for punchcard submission! HorraY! My broke life will be ending soon and i can start buying my CNY clothes! HORRAY!

I worked 83.5 hours for this month and 83.5*6=$501! I was so happy at first, thinking that at least i have earned half a thousand. I stood up and gave the punch card back to Sunny and suan pian ask him wad's the cpf rate.

"They changed the rate already. If you earn more than $500 you will need to pay dunno how much. You go online to check la."

晴天劈哩!!!

So the desperate me went online at once to check for the cpf rate and i found out that they are goin to deduct $75 of my pay！ sOBBBBBBBBBBBBB.. my $75 gone just like tat... SOBBBBBBBBB..

No more monday blues!

2008-01-20T22:08:00.000+08:00

Looking forward to job tomorrow! This job suddenly become something that is worth looking forward to! Simply because nicholas has joined us and siok is backed to work! No more spending breaks alone! No more going down to da bao lunch alone! sort of a relive for me! YAY!

Agency scam?!

2008-01-20T21:56:00.000+08:00

Hey everybody.. i am offically BROKE!! sobbbb..

kelly services is a jerk, have been delaying our pay(me, sarly and siok) for so long (3 weeks already)! I was fuming mad when that guy told me that he have yet to receive our timesheets! And the very moment i heard that, i went to msg chris (supervisor in ocbc), asking him the whereabout of our timesheets, and only to receive his reply 'yes i did.. i will check with them.'

One week passed.............. No pay

two week passed................... Also no pay

Three week passed....................No pay again

Forth week passed..........................Where the hell is my PAY!!!!

the fifth week is coming and i am still hoping i can get my pay. I am so broke now until i cant even buy chinese new year clothes yet.. SOOBBBBBBBB

Moral of the story: Never get through agency to find jobs. You will eventually regret!

Oh, i happened to stumble upon an interesting buffet on net! I am going to bring Jason there on our 13th month! And gonna give him a surprise on that day! Lol.

Will post a review after trying that special buffet!

cheers!

2008-01-08T10:06:00.000+08:00

Finally i am here to revive my rotting blog. As usual, i am feeling super lazy to even blog about my life. Wonder how ppl will have the energy and determination to make an effort to blog. Peifu peifu sia!

Oh, i joined this library job together with siokhuey, with the help of jason of course. And it turned out to be slacking and definitely boring. haha, nevertheless, it's slacking enough to attract us to continue on. hahax, that's our attitude man! lol.

Siokhuey wasnt here with me today cos her dad was sick again. The miserable me is here alone, blogging during teabreak, while everyone is out in the canteen having fun and slacking. sobbb.. *siok if u r reading this, u better feel gulity and start thinking of how to make up to me!*lol..

Jason daddie isnt in the same department with me.. feeling quite disappointed. Not only this, our lunch break differ by half an hour! oh man..

Ytd was on the phone with cass and realised how much i missed them! hasnt been toking to her for quite sometimes! sarly too! wonder how her job goes! Yesterday wanted to chat with her on msn, and she sounded so busy. Oh btw, i finally learned how to use web msn online! so cool! siok taught me during work and we chatted with justine thru out! hahax

oh no.. it's 1015! going back to work!

2007-10-03T22:35:00.000+08:00

It has been long since i've been feeling like this right now. I feel very stressed, burden-ed, and low-spirited. It must be the Alevel stress and siok's story. A level is just 20 plus more days away and i m like still in a slacking mood. Not slacking, but some sort of losing the direction and goals in life. I've been wondering, what if i dont do well and get a decent Alevel cert? What will i end up to be? I am scare. Fear that i cant be able to make it for uni. All these account for the emotions i am feeling right now.

Mj has claimed that they are doing their best to help the J2 students to clear their Alevel. But the saddening truth is that, teachers are still biased afterall, they just want to help the better students to get their As and neglect the Us.

2007-07-04T19:09:00.000+08:00

see the lovely shirts? they are designed by my lovely dadddie!! Daddie! mummie love you!!!!

Mummie have a good time todae!

daddie dun worrie, mummie will stay with daddie foreva!! and we gonna have claren, cael and chester or claudia!!! lol..

muacks muacks daddie!

happy 6th month!

2007-07-03T00:51:00.000+08:00

Happy 6th month anniversary daddie!!!

cant wait for our fabulous date after tues last paper!!

cant wait for our paris buffet dinner and a romantic stroll along esplanade!

cant wait to wear the heels u've bought for me!!

and tonite i am goin to hug pooh pooh to slp and look forward to my pleasant surprise tml!

i love u daddie and we'll be together ever and ever!

whee! =)

2007-06-19T22:17:00.001+08:00

AN IMAGINED-INTERESTING CONVERSATION in my mind:
(this is 100% not true(or maybe it does to certain extent) and is all made up (including all the characters). Please do not relate it to any events that is happening recently. Hint hint)

Ring ring... ring ring.. ringggggggg...

Adenosine: Hello, this is adenosine. Who's this?

Lygase: Hey adenosine! This is lygase! Remember me? Your secondary school friend! Oh byyyy the wayyyyyyy~, how are you??

Adenosine: Oh well, I am fine. The weather here is sooo nice! And people here are very amicable! How are you too?

Lygase: Ohhhh, me? I am not good! I am in such a pitiful state now. *sigh*

Adensoine: OMG! what happened lygase?

Lygase: You really want me to tell you? But it's not good to badmouth people you know? (I better sound innocent, the first step to make her believe me! It's taught in chicken soup: Steps to make people believe your wicked act.)

Adensoine: Come on buddy, i am ur friend! (Purposely call me just to complain, think i dunno meh!?)

Lygase: Alrite, but remember not to tell anyone ok, i only tell u because i treat u as my friend (step 2 in chicken soup), especially i dont have many nowadays.

Adenosine: sure, it will go with me to the grave!

Lygase: Well, it happened like this: remember carboxylase? *sigh* because of her, i've landed in such a miserable state. She made 3 friends: 1) adenosine triphosphate with a very distinctive feature on her face! one glance and you will know that she is ATP with strong legs!
2) Guanosine Triphosphate with a very whitey shiny smile with strong lower body!
3) Glycerate phosphate with a bamboo like figure and doesnt eat much!
The four of them formed one gang and acuses me things that i didnt do!!!!

Adenosine: Oh really? that's interesting! what did they accuse you?

Lygase: well, i wasnt in the wrong you see! There was once that i was playing a game with someone and i lost. And that gang said that i was flirting around!!!!!

This wasnt all. The worst is that carboxylase! she serve as a intermediate and broke my friendship up with ATP. All because of her, i lost all my friend!

Glycerate phosphate also accuse me that i was too sticky to this ultra-handsome-guy in her opinion!

All of them ganged up and used their so called 'beauty' to cheat people thinking that i am the bad one!!!

Adenosine: Hey, tell you what. I've watched a lot of shows. Though i dunno what really happened, i hope that you can somewhat reflect upon yourself! Do you know that everything takes 2 hands to clap? If you claim that you didnt do anything to them, why would they react in such a manner? If you claim that you are innocent, then why they gave up on you? Come on, I trust that given their intelligence, they wouldnt be so stupid and so irrational to listen and got brainwashed by carboxylase! and also, what did you do to carboxylase to make her do such a thing to you? Come on, REFLECT upon yourself! Phone bill is expensive! STOP WASTING MY MONEY!!!

doooo dooooooooooo doooooooo....

Lygase was left alone with a widely-opened mouth.

TO all the people out there: Adenosine is taking a neutral and rational stand. This SHOULD be the stand of all the 3rd party people out there, who is listening to all the stories that are going around. THANK YOU!!!!!!

CHANGE BLOGSKIN!

2007-06-19T21:49:00.000+08:00

OH man! weeks and weeks of revision make me grow FAT! hahax..

i changed my blogskin because i am hungry NOW NOW NOW!

i wanna eat!!!!

LOL

2007-05-15T17:31:00.000+08:00

tried the personality test in siok's blog.. it was soo true lo.. hehehe...

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

2007-04-30T11:55:00.000+08:00

我的好朋友阿，
我的老朋友阿，
我的知心朋友阿，
我的好姐妹啊，
我的死党啊。。。

谢谢你，
谢谢你的一切，
你的了解，
你的包容，
你的宽恕，
你的不舍与不弃。

你在我心中的地位，
从未变过。
我未从忘记过你的存在，
未曾忘记过惜日的点点滴滴。
真的是好怀念，
好怀念。

可是，
时间不能倒转，
不能回到过去。
我们只好向前看，
让我们一起去创造更多美好的回忆，
把我们原有的友情，
提升到更加可贵与坚固。

我的好姐妹阿，
为我们的友情，
我们的将来，
我们的辛福，
我们一起努力吧！

你要记住，
不管你有多难过，
失落，
困难，
悲伤，
我都会默默地支持你，
给于你我的关怀与力量。

朋友，
为我们的友谊，
干一杯吧！
先干为敬！
友谊万岁！

2007-04-28T22:29:00.001+08:00

went back to hong kong a week ago, for the sake of changing my IC (they call it ID in hk) to the adult version together with my grandma. I looked in my children IC and got a HUGE shock. I realised that i changed sooooo much over the years, cant believe that i once looked like that b4.

I went back to my motherland. It was once so familar to me. But now, everything has changed. I walked up to the street, it was so crowded and everywhere look the same to me. I have to figure my out my way each day and have got lost almost everyday. I was nearly knocked down by a car while trying to figure out the way one day. It was terrifying.

It may seem to others that i was enjoying my one week break. But honestly, i rather not have the break. I've realised that i am deeply attached to everything here. I feel miserable to shop around alone. Nobody there for me to joke with, tok to and play with. Life is just so different.

After having been through all these, i've become more independent and take care of ppl around me.

Although it wasnt enjoying, but it was productive. I've bought everything i need in hk and guess i wun have to go shopping anymore for the rest of the year!

2007-04-28T22:29:00.000+08:00

2007-04-28T21:32:00.000+08:00

友情，
对我来说，
是人生最可贵的宝物。
是一种有钱买不到的东西。

从一个完完全全不认识的陌生人开始，
变成一个无话不谈，无事不说的过程，
谈何容易？
要交一个好朋友，
并不是三天两夜能做得到的事。
要交一个知心和可靠的朋友，
更加是难上加难。

可是，我很幸运，
上天赐给了我一段很可贵的友情。
我很珍惜这段可贵的友情。
经过了多年的风风雨雨，
我们的交情成长了，变得十分坚固。

不需交谈也可以猜到彼此的想法，
不管开心或难过时，都会影响彼此的心情。
我们的交情，已到了这种境界。

但是，最近因种因素，
我们的友情被拉远了。
是我错了。
我已经很努地补回我们知间的距离。
很怀念我们以前的一点一滴。
很希望可以回到我们原有的友情。
我想对你说，不要放弃我们的友情！

2007-03-04T23:44:00.000+08:00

a quick shot @ bus stop..who noes it turns out to be so perfect!!!!! wahahhax..

2007-03-04T23:39:00.000+08:00

guess who's this 2 gd friends??? hahax.. u will nv guess that the one one the left is susanto and the one on the right is my dear!? lol......

lovely couple----> us! hahax..

eat until so unglam!!!! tsk tsk!!!!! @ xin wang @ ws lolll...

LOOK!!!!! he is like such a glutton!! eat sooooooooo much... lol.. =P

2007-03-04T23:31:00.000+08:00

laugh somemore, laugh somemore.. eat ur fav tuna skin handroll la....... hehehehehehehhehezz..

my wasabi with soya sauce!!!! it's used for SASHIMI!!! omg, it just taste so HEAVENLY!!!!! lol.... yum yum!!!!!!!

then we headed to eat smelly tofu!!!!!! hahahx.. it reallli stink lorz...... and we have to go and grab a cup of coffee to wash away our stinky breathe!!!!! lol...

2007-03-04T23:23:00.000+08:00

02/03/07 ------> a memorable day for me and my dear---- our 2nd month anniversary!!!! hahax.. and so, after collecting our Alevel chinese result, we went out and spend our anniversary together!!!!

and so, my lovely dear suggested to go novena square... AND we actualli got lost when finding our way to united square.. and so when we actualli find our way there, there was nth to shop....... so in the end, we decided to go back to cityhall instead!!!!

look at my fd!!! it is like sooooooooooooooooooo yummmmmmmmyyy now!!!!!! wahhahahahx!!

a quick snap shot of my dear.. who wanted to give a 'i-am-shuai' pose.... but tooooooo bad, my finger click faster than ur pose!!! =PPpPP

2007-03-04T23:13:00.000+08:00

some very interesting pictures to blog about!! hahahx.. and i am like finally updating my blog!!! lol.. some very good artists(lijing, jason and sharon) transformed everyone in S301 into cartoons!!!!! and look at the cute me!!!!!!!!! omg, i am just too cutee!!! =PPP

2007-01-20T00:38:00.000+08:00

Ladies and gentleman, boys and girls! Here comes the long awaited entry of mine! I beg all of you have been screaming for updates and waiting to read my next entry. Lol, so here it goes.........

First all of, i've consolidated all the pictures that i've took for the past few months and it's time to blog about everything using pictures! no nid waste my time and energy to type and let the pic explains all!! wahahhax.

This Ah gong ah ma chopstick was quite a tough and tiring CIP project. becoz of this, almost half of my remaining holiday was GONEEEEE~~~

The whole lot of us who puts in our HEART and SOUL for the project! Millions thanks to them for giving me their supporT! lol...

Next activity was the Christmas countdown @ nic chew's house! it was just fun fun and fun~ hahax... the highlight of the countdown was the exchg of present!

Here comes a flying nicholas out of no where!! geuss he was trying to save the fallen sarly on the other side. lol......

sKipping some out the activities, the most interesting event eva was the family day @ bukit batok.. me, sarly and siok enjoyed ourselves to the fullest. With the accompany of my dear and jeremy! lol...

Dressing up the cute and bright costume..

End product ------> such a cute purple flower!!!! =p

3 beautiful minglers!!!!!! so eye-catching.. we r the models of the day!!!!!!!!

@ PERKAFE!!!!!!

My OG! of coz, not all are there. lolll....

2006-12-20T22:16:00.001+08:00

My favourite song in chinese version!

2006-12-12T23:16:00.000+08:00

THE GREAT ME is backkk to blog about my days again! lol.. as usual, the busy me can onli blog once in a while!!! so here goes my precious and long entry!!!!! i shall onli blog about things that i can remember.. as you guys noe, my brain capacity is actually quite small!!!! lol..

LOKYEE's RETURN
Let me first blog about my dear friend who came back from hk--LOKYEE! yet another friend who is super close to me. know her for about 8 years i guess and even though we dint meet up very often, e bonds in us r still very strong and unbreakable! lol.. Very frankly speaking, she is my role model in life. Not flattering her or exaggerating, but she is seriously a very strong person! i bet ppl who noe her will definitely agree with me. I realli admired her attitude, the ways she deals with things, all the street smartness she has, the maturity in her, her charisma and everything! She just have a way to deal with ppl and settle everything under the sun without hurting any person that she come across. U may wonder, is there realli such a perfect person in this world? all doubts will be cleared when u get to know her.

She came bk to singapore for 5 days, and after that, she will go bk to hk and proceed to UK to study. Which means, we wun be meeting again in the near future. Me, her and may, spend one of they day at sentosa, vivocity and dinner with my parents! we took alot alot of pictures and i will soon post it here! lol.. i stayed over at her house one night and 3 of us together with her dad played MAHJONG thru out the nite.. hahax.. just onli one night, i became expert in mahjong! hahahax.. not bad rite?.. so on the day she go back, we went to swensen to have our last meal together. lol.. then we went to send her off. i gave her 4 brithday presents so that she can open one each year. lol. this is wad i can do for her for the last time lo.. haix.. and went she was about to go into the departure hall, she hugged us and there was tears in her eyes.. it was sad to see her leave la.. but i guess she will definitely do very well in UK, and will be coping well with all the stress and problems she faced in life. I sincerely wish her good luck and hope to see her soon. maybe the next time i see her, she will be back with an ang mo bf.. hahax..

SMU compeition
i guess i should leave out the details of the process. cos u can call read from siok's and sarly's blog about it. hahax..Though it's a tough process and many unforeseen cirumstances happening during the presentation itself, but actualli there is a lot of tings that we've benefitted.

1) e tough process brought me, siok and sarly closer! this is for sure! and many ppl are realli nice lorz.. sacrified their time and energy to help us.. should give some CREDITS to jason tay, phira, tszyan, my family members, sarly's friend, my laptop and computer plus my bed! lol..

2) the unforeseen incidents prepared us for our future presentations, how should we react when these kind of things happened next time. and add on to our experience!

3) feel proud of ourselves. we went thru this competition alone, with no help from the experienced and teachers. All the help we got was from jason, tszyan and phira! and we head down to smu, with no backups from teachers and so on.. wad a gd experience.

4) get to know the ard smu, so next time can show off to ppl that we've actualli been there!

this competition is another experience that widen my horizon.. very challenging and interesting. Though we didnt manage to be the 6 grps that qualify for the final, but we are very proud of our ppt and ideas. though we lost, but we lost with pride! this is our first attempt and with no knowledge of IT and technology, i tink we've done it veri well! though we lost, but in our hearts, we've won!!!!!

failure is the KEY to sucess! anticipate our next glory!

WORK AT EXPO
working as cashier cum packer gave me an experience to a new phase of life! not onli that we've learn how to operate that cashier machine, but oso to make lots of new friends, friends that let us see the other part of the world.

OH well, i am feel lazy and should blog again when i've straightened out all the thoughts going on in my mind!

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2006-11-30T00:35:00.000+08:00

Your Attitude is Better than 70% of the Population

You have a good attitude. While a realist, you do see the positive side of most things. People love to be around you.

How's" Your Attitude?

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You are confident and ready to tackle life.
You are pretty vain and happy with your physical appearance.
You are born to be the center of attention, and you're unhappy on the sidelines.
You're always up for trying something new - in and out of bed!

What Does Your Sleeping Position Say About You?

You Are a Green Apple Jelly Bean

Of all the flavors, you're the most complex and the most real. A little sweet, a little sour, and totally tangy. People can't describe you, but they love you!

What Flavor Jelly Bean Are You?

2006-11-29T22:13:00.000+08:00

i bet ppl are anticipating, dying to read another entry of mine.. so, i shall not let them wait any longer! here comes my next entry.. whahahax

Life is still as busy even though it's holiday now. lol. i shall blog about the one and only day that belongs to me in the year of 2006! lol.

27 NOV
MY BIRTHDAY~!!!! alrdi on e 26th sunday nite, after knocking off from work, johnathan (my supervisor in carrefour) wished me happy birthday b4hand and cabbage treat me to a chicken drumstick as my birthday present! hahahax. and when the clock strikes 12, msges wishing me hapi bdae start to flood in. lol.. and nw i shall blog about every msges..! hahax

Jason: Happy bdae! i dun care whether itx earlier den 12 ant cos mi watch nt accurate, haha so i nt taking ani risk, i wana b the first! wahahaha!

Wingyan: TSZSHAN HAPI BIRTHDAE! may u b showered wif mani blessings, wisdom for ur studies. love, joy n peace fill ur heat everyday! Miss u love u darlin :-D :-D

cuifen: Happy birthday!!! lol ca watch m18 liao.. not fair -_-

siokhuey: i know i m not e first.. bt i dun think tat's impt because my heart is 4eva with u.. wakakakaka! happy birthday to u! *censored* all the best to ur everything, sincerely snow white XD

jian an: -.- wish u an early hapi birthday. hope u will stay as hapi as ever...

i am getting sooooo tired of typing all the msges. so i shall stop here due to energy constraint. But i would like to thank you guys for remembering my birthday~ a BIG thank you to: KIM CHUAN, CHONG HONG and RAIHAN, who never fail to wish me happy birthday every year.

To: WEIEN, WINGYAN and SPENSER, who have been wishing me happi birthday for the 5th time consecutively every year.

To: BELOVED MAYDELINE, the one who will confirm wish me hapi birthday every year since pri 3!!!

To: SWEET little LAVINIA, who have been planning my birthday sooo hard together with siokhuey!

To: BAnd major JONATHAN OH whom i didnt expect him to rmb my bdae, but he did!

To: smalleyed SIOKHUEY who loves me so much XD!

To: Jolly JASON, who haf mastered what perfection is, so that he can actuali wish me hapi birthday on the dot and how he was able to predict my hp was 3 mins fast and how to calculate e time neeeded to type and for the sms to transmit.

To: CHEERFUL CASSANDRA, who praised me for being a pretty gal all the time and making comments that are most pleasant to my ears.. LOL

To: ABIGAIL AND SOCKLENG, who have called each other and discussed the content of my bdae msg! lol.. and both send the same msg!

To: WEIXIONG, who almost killed me when i wasnt picking up his call! and i picked up in the end to get a 'scolding' from him. LOL

To: TERENCE, KATHRYN, RACHEL, PIERRE, for rmbing my brithday!

To: SEXY SARLY, for wraping up my present in soooooooooooooo many layers of newspaper!

To: BOXIONG, TECK TENG, WILSON and TIMO, thanks for sacrifying ur brain cells to come up with my present!

To: NICHOLAS CHEW and JEREMY: thanks for pushing me into the pool and pouring the whole pill of water with ALMOND essence that make me stink!!!!!!!!!

To: LIJING, for wishing me hapi birthday even though she is at work!

To: CHEYL ANNE, for ur lovely birthday wishing!

To: SANDRA, love you! still remember my birthday!!!!!!!!! hahax

To: KESLEEN! LOVE the shoe u've made for me! i realli realli appreciate that and i will sure wear it!

To CRYSTAL TAN: i LOVE the scrap bk u've made for me! i am ALMOST CLOSE to tearS! it was soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo NICE!!!!!!!! LOVE YOU!

To PeisI: THanks for ur sweet birthday msg!!!! CHEERS!

To JUSTINE: so sad u wasnt there on that day, but still thank u for wishing me! lol.. miss ur lame jokes!

To CHINYONG: not bad, still noe how to wish me.. hahax..

To SHARON, GELINA, GERALDINE, AH POON, JAZREEL, YAN HAN, YIQIANG, TINGYAN, thanks for coming to celebrate with me! lol.. sooooooo glad that u guys have turn up who've made SIGNIFANT difference to the night!

This gonna be my longest entry ever! lol.. i realli did enjoy myself on my birthday and it's realli the greatest bdae ever! i feel sooooooooooooooooo , blesssed to have sooo many frenz ard, to care for me and to love me. I haf nv ever feel so loved before!!!!!!!!! and my family, who will be celebrating for me on my lunar birthday!

OH, there is one thing that i must blog about! Recently, i've discovered HONG KONG TEA HOUSE, which is located besides katong mall, which sells a great variety of HONGKONG FOOD!!!!!!! oh trust me, the food was great! and the ambience inside the tea house issssssssssssssssss just so hongkong! PEOPLE pls, try it! u will nv regret it man! and the prices are soooooooo affordable!!!!! STOP HESITATING! go down and try it now! lol..

2006-11-16T14:03:00.000+08:00

hahahax.. i am in nicholas house now blogging.. lol.. Went to this 'meeeehhhhh' house after our 4 days 3 nights chalet at ntuc. Chalet was FUN FUN and FUN!! almost everyone came for the BBQ nite! and quite a number of exS301 ppl was there too! and when it was time for checking out just nw, everyone was like not wanting to go and hope to stay for another night! hahahax...

Me, siok and lavi was working in PS carrefour as promoter, to promote their lucky draw card. It was a tough job and i almost quit last sunday, after working for 2 days becoz of the boring-ness and stress level! hahax.. and last sunday, our classmates (nicholas, jason, christina, sharon and sarly) quit the same job after working for one day onli! 3 of us were shocked after hearing this. TSK tsk.. their tolerance and perservance level was so low!!! hahhax.. shall blog more about it tonite. lol. 2 days nv go hm to slp le... so slpppppyyyy... ahhahax

2006-11-07T00:03:00.000+08:00

It must have been ages since i last blog.. hahax.. Many things have been going on and one of them is definitely OP! this sickening op is like taking up most of our time!! How much i long for wednesday to arrive, so that i can get over and done with. Oh no, wait there, i still haven finish my I&R yet! OMG!

Well well well, just have my first OP dry run todae, actualli supposed to be the second but becoz for the first one i fainted while practising. According to my pw grps, they say that i didnt eat breakfast and lunch and oso becoz i was nervous. hahax. Alrite, i must admit that i have poor health! so maybe i will die young! *sob sob*

For todae's dry run, i didnt do well as expected. Firstly, becoz very nervous, secondly, as i read, the more boring i am and so as the audience, so in the end, got lots got negative feedback from the audience.. hahax.. but it's ok, i will improve on it and tml, for our third dry run, everyone will be going to see a changed me! lol.. Moreover, becoz i was sooooo darn nervous that i repeated a whole para, but no one notice anyway, except for the person behind me--- jason who was operating the ppt slides notice and laugh till sooooooo laugh that i become even more nervous! ARGGGHHHH!!! hahahax..

Went to lavi's house for (erm, actualli i oso dunno for wad larz.. ) i think i went there to provide entertainment and bring laughter to them onli lorz.. hahhax.. siokhuey's grp went there to edit their slides while me and lavi keep doing silly things.. lol.. OH well anyway, I LOVE LAVINIA! ( becoz she insisted that i must write this.. hahax) but i realli love her larz.. hahax.. anyway, i LOVE SIOKHUEY too.. I LOVE CRYSTAL also.. hahax.. I LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS!!!!! hahhax.. all of us went crazy in lavi's house lorz.. first there was this lame fight with phira, then me and crystal kip taking pictures.. and the list goes on and on =).. as always, when there is good thing, there will be something bad, and i shouldnt mention about it. Blog has its limitations too lorz.. wad a pity! lol..

3 witches is alive again! but this time, we are going to upgrade ourselves! speaking of 3 witches, it reminds me of mr audi, who is leaving mj this year. so sad, next year we wun be having him as our GP tutor! I LOVE MR AUDI! his sense of humour was like sooooooooooooooo good la.. he is the best GP teacher eva lorz.. hahax..

This gonna be a long post becoz i dun think i am that hardworking to blog frequently! hahax. i shall blog smth about mr cia! hahax.. actuali, i think i will miss him as he is no longer our CT next year. gonna miss all the joking session, all the suaning him sessions, the way he suan me. Actualli he is the first teacher that i realli can talk to, as in behave as my true self in front of him. hahax.. though we always complain about him, but at the end of the day, we noe that he actuali cares for us. GOnna miss his presence. hopefulli he dun read my blog lorz, coz this is the onli entry that i praise about him and if he eva reads it, he gonna float alrdi larz.. hahax...

Recently, i watched goong and i finished it within 2 days! kip on watching adn watching till like 5 plus in the morning! hahax.. and i cried realli hard towards the ending! it was like sooooooooo touchingg lo.. and this is the onli show that i cried so hard for.. becoz it reminds me alot of my memories.. memories that is deeeeeeeeepppp down the heart that i dun even dares to recall.. if onli i could blog in chinese, i will have typed out all the beautiful phrase and all the things said in the show!

Goong, reminds me about the period when i was still with andrew. I think whoeva who read my blog will be surprise that i wrote his name. I tink this is gonna be the first time eva that his name appear in my blog. Last time, i was always afraid to blog about him, blog about things that we did together, becoz i dun wan words to go around, i dun like ppl to tok about us, especially when everyone objects us to be together and i dun wan him to read about them. But nw, i noe that he will never read my blog again. and i dun mind even if there are words going around outside. But seriously, i dun think i hate him for just going away like that, i dun hate him for being cruel to me. Instead, i respect his decision, i tink he has made the correct choice.

After he disappeared out of my life in just one day, i was very lost. VERY VERY LOST indeed. It is as though that my life was aimless. It was a very very very tough period. i tink onli lavi, kes, siok and graham noe about it. And they motivates, encourage me to move on with life. He is the first person that i had eva loved so deeply. Well, looking back, going through this period made me grow, i tink i have grew much more mature and wiser now. I have become more and more cheerful, and realised that at this stage, making more friends and maintain friendship are far more important than getting into a relationship. Andrew Wee Ming Hong will foreva be part of my memory! hahax.

Oh, i dunno why i am getting so emo after watching this GOONG show. hahahahax.. i shall go and slp now, shall blog again when i feel like doing sooo.. hahax..

2006-10-27T23:24:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SIOKHUEY AND AH POON
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!

lol..just came back after celebrating poon's birthday near justine's house. lol. it was so fun todae. lavi and siok come to meet me at the 292 bus stop before proceeding to justine's house dat basketball court to play basketball. lol. out of kindness, justine told us to take 18 instead of 17 coz according to her, we can reach there faster. so we took 18.....

who knows after we have alighted from 18, justine told us to walk in, then dunno turn left then turn right, dunno turn where la, and i was so confused. in the end, she told me that the basketball court was directly opposite 85 market there. and we can take 17 directly there in the first place, and save us from walking here and there and from getting lost too.. lol. but nevertheless, we haf fun when trying to figure out the way when we were lost. lol..

AFter i tink about half an hour, we finally reached there! lol.. so we started the game, miss ng's brother was there too. hahax. he look alot like miss ng! lol.. then after awhile, my toe bleed!!!! lol.. according to jazreel, she stepped on me, tat's y it bleed.. lol.. after about another hour, we went opp to the 85 market there to haf our dinner! lol, and saw nyukqiang and ziqian.. lol.. so qiao.. hahax..

after dinner, we then go back to the park and cut the cake at the play ground. lol.. justine secretly went to make 3 waterbombs and for us to throw at them. i took one and threw at siokhuey, but sadly, missed. lol.. and in the end, poon and siok chased back and ATTEMPTED to throw at me. hahax.. and i ran so FAST that they lost sight of me and for once, they thought that i went into the time space. CRAZY galssss.. lol..

We took lots and lots of pictureSSS too.. i shall get hold of them and post here.. ahhax

and yeah, the suki yaki buffet called and asked me and siok to go down to their branch near tampines swimming complex there for an interview on mon, ard 3pm!! lol.. according to siok, it was veri high class there.. hehehe.. but if the pay was too low, we will find another one instead.. hahax..

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photos of the party at sunplaza!

2006-10-24T23:20:00.000+08:00

Many things happened lately and these few days were quite bad for me. Life has ups and downs. And i was quite down for the past few days. But i tink there is no point blogging down these bad memories. i shall let bygones be bygones. lol..

talk about someting more interesting and fun instead. i dun wanna make my blog look as though it is a sad blog. because siokhuey la, kip saying that my every entry is veri emotional and sad. so i shall blog something interesting todae. lol..

todae we haf a party at sunplaza park, to celebrate siokhuey's bdae cum class promotion party. luckily everything turned out to be quite fun in the end. at first i still thot that it was a failure lo.. hahax.. i think the captain's ball game was veri veri fun.. hahax..

oh ya, to PHIRA and BOXIONG! both of u gonna be dead lorz.. i shall think of something to get back to them for making my hair full of flour and dough! lol..

i am getting tired.. tml then blog more about it.. lol..

sorrie, as usual, i am lazy.. hahx

2006-10-18T22:38:00.000+08:00

wow, the effect was done by crystal! so nice!

2006-10-17T21:11:00.000+08:00

Todae was the worst day ever. got back my chem result and it was so astrocious! there gone my hope of promoting to jc2 next year.. I just cant believe that i've got such low marks when i've actuali studied and can ans most of the questions. Sigh.. sigh..

I DUN WAN TO RETAIN!

NEITHER DID I WAN TO GO TO POLY!

i just cant help but feel so depress over my chem. Just ytd, i was still consoling crystal and was telling her that not all hopes are gone yet. but when people said this to me todae, i've found out that something is easier to say than to be done. Seriously, i've kind of regret that i didnt put in effort for mid year. I hate myself for not having the courage to overcome things that were affecting me during the study period in june. I hate myself for letting all my emotions to control me. I hate myself to trust people easily. I hate myself for having such a soft character. I hate myself for not being strong. I hate myself!

I HATE MYSELF!

I totally dislike this character of me.

How i wish i could blog freely, without any restriction, without any worries that people will read and criticise. I feel so down now! I just wan to cry out loud now and release everything that has accumulated in me over the past few weeks.

Why? why? why? why must i hide myself so well in front of people? Why am i putting up with everything with a smile? that's not what i wan myself to be! and why are people saying things behind my back? why? i am who i am and other people have no rights to judge.

Why cant i lead a more simple life? how i wish i was born in so wulu parts in china, where i can just lead a simple and relaxing life, and not in this modern but superficial world, where everyone is so insincere, so not trustworthy, so complicated and everybodi are doing everythings tat they could to achieve what they want, even to the extent of hurting others.

2006-10-16T00:34:00.000+08:00

nice right? after our hard effort, we finally managed to light this up! did this on mooncake festival!

2006-10-16T00:23:00.000+08:00

2006-10-14T23:35:00.000+08:00

just came back from a swim with siok! lol.. swimming is sooooo refreshing~ tat's y i love this water sport! lol.. stayed at home all day, slping of coz.. realli veri tired after hours of picking up coconuts at the booth! the guys from our class all went to hide sumwhere and SLACK lo.. left onli me and yqiaing and sarly at the booth.. poor us.. haix..

after the open house, is back to PW agn.. so boringggggg.. lol.. next week getting back results alrdiiii.. poly or j2?????? lol..

recently quite moody.. dunno y oso.. maybe is pms laa.. hahax..

2006-10-09T20:45:00.000+08:00

WOOOOHOOOO!! promos finally over!!!!! my stress level has finally gone down! and it's time for me to SLACK and spend my time on tings that i like to do! lol.. perhaps i should starting mugging for Alevels now.. LOL!

On the other hand, i sort of dun wan this exam period to end. cos when this period is over, it means that cca haf to be resumed and start having normal lessons once again! Lol, but nvm, during this period, i will haf an additional task to do ---- start looking for polys and the course i will wan to take, cos my chance of retaining is superrrrrrrrrr highhhhhhh... lol..

anyway, i am getting tired nw. shall blog again aanother time.. lol... gonna take a quick nap b4 going jogging later.. lol..

2006-09-19T22:52:00.000+08:00

this post is about the camp at tao nan! lol.. though i noe that it has alrdi been 2 weeks ago. lol. simply cos i enjoyed the camp, apart from the kids. LOL. Well, in this camp, new experience gain, new things learnt, made many nice and good frenz and developed kids phobia.. LOL..

Made a lot of new frenz thru the camp--- wailumn, huiwen, shunde, shawn, junwei, yichen, alan, kangfang, jazreel and other ppl in other houses. lol. We are from NILE! Wad a mighty name it is!!! hahahahahax.. anyway, i gonna upload all the pictures soon, perhaps after promos. lol. And this cuming fri was the thank-you dinner for us, commanders! woah.. at coasta sands.. it gonna be cool i guess.. hahax...

Term 4 is realli a busy week, real busy! No time for practically anything, xcept for study of cos. lol.. HAf found a veri nice and conducive place to study lately. it was the pacific coffee cafe located in T2! it was so cool, apart from the freezing temperature. lol.

LAtely just realised alot of things that is going on in this world. I found out that increasing number of ppl are getting more and more superficial each day. Not targetting at anyone, but just a comment made judging from the overall, including myself. lol. there are many reasons behind this. i shall blog about this when i haf the time. lol.

I was doing my eom but gt sooo irritated and decided to blog instead, to take a break. lol. Irritated due to a number of reasons, mainly on the quarrel between my sis and her bf. lol. I begin to becum more and more doubtful about the term "true love". What is true love? Is there eternal love in this world? Getting into a relationship is a pain. Really. First, u got infactuate with they person that u like. Then, due to curiosity, u slowly wan to find out more and get closer to the person that you like. There after, you want to get into a relationship with her. In the first few months, u will think that u r the happiest woman on earth, due to all the care and concern that ur man has showered u with. As months passes, slowly and slowly u've found out the true colour of the opposite sex, quarrels and cold wars will come into the picture. Not long after, broke up happened and those who managed to go passed this phrase will forge deeper bonds and drawn closer to each other.

However, how many couples actually can manage to pass this stage? How tough it is in the process, considering all the negative emotions and thoughts you have to overcome? it is not as simple and easy as you think. Those people who go back to single statues again will have to repeat and repeat the cycle once again. Just imagine and you will understand how tired it is going to be!

Therefore, i concluded that true love/ eternal love does not exist in this world. However, there are always exception, probably 0.001%. lol..

2006-08-26T20:46:00.000+08:00

It has been long, since i last blogged about what's going on around me. Life is definitely more interesting nw. I've revived! energy is pumping in me every now and then. LOL. my smile is definitely getting bigger everyday, thanks to jeremy, my recently adopted sai low di di. lol..

Quite alot of events going around too. The more important one is of coz the promos, but the more exciting one will be the tao nan camp on this cuming fri, teachers' day. And oso be urself day on thurs. lol.

2006-07-29T22:18:00.000+08:00

dunno wad happened to my blogskin!!! ARGH! anyway, no time to fix it, so just leave it for a couple of weeks. Hopefulli i can upload a nicer blogskin. lol.

last week, i heard from my another frenz tat last time her character was not veri good, but now, she haf changed. Well, everyone haf a past. I haf a past too, and there are only 6 persons on this earth who know about it. Though now i haf gotten over it, but it actuali leaves an impact on me and i've learnt the lesson behind. tat's what made who i am todae.

Oh ya, i went to this meeting todae. it was a AGM meeting and there is this management committee sitting infront addressing us. I actually witness the scene tat a chairman was bombarded with questions that she wanted to close the meeting and run off as quick as possible. It was simply hilarious. She was actualli hated by lots of people because she is veri biased and the whole of her commitee was unjust and unfair. Then there was this heated arguement going on between her and another man. And the crowd was cheering and clapping for the man who haf counter-argued her most of the time. lol.

And i managed to shift my focus back to wad i should do. I realised that i haf wasted half a year on something that is not worthy of my time. i've advanced on to achieve greater things in life.

To u, if u happened to read it
I know tat certain things cant be forced. from the moment that we separate, i should haf noe tat there is no turning back. i should haf noe tat our relationship cant be salvaged. u sae that u still love me, but how true is that? There is always say, but no action. And i told u i believe u, i trust u. but it's getting harder and harder for me to convince myself that i should. i always believe tat if i dun take the initiative to msg u, u wun msg me. and it's true. for the 5 days that i did not msg u, u onli haf sent me 1 msg. and tat already tells me how important i am to u, how much u missed me. so i've given up. now, i shall pick myself up and work hard for my promos, and i will leave singapore and back to hk.

2006-07-29T11:17:00.000+08:00

I am back finallY!!! lol.. for the past few days, i was way way too busy. lol. It's gonna be the busiest days in mjc. lol. THere is a sudden craze over the japs in our sch recently. lol. that band was super good! it was just so amazing! i went to their performance on last sat and it was a pity to those who didnt go.. lol.

shall blog again later in the nite. lol.

2006-07-22T00:36:00.000+08:00

hmm.. what should i blog about todae? well, actually for the past 2 weeks, i am quite proud of myself for getting off the idea of 'ponning' in my head. Because i realli dun wan to retain. lol. and i forced myself to wake up everyday, thinking along the happy side that going to sch is fun because my classmates are fun! lol. Also, i tink keeping myself busy is realli one of the ways to keep myself away from all sort of distractions, especially in certain area.

Actually, i realli begin to see the light somehow or rather, or i should sae is accepting the reality and move on with life. Graham's words really make me understand alot of things.

2006-07-17T21:41:00.000+08:00

This week is gonna be a veri busy week. So sad, cannot haf afternoon nap le. LOL. Feel so tired after each day. Somemore recently dunno y kip on having flu, must be the weather larz. haiyo. tml gonna have alevel bio spa, and listening compre, somemore after tat got make up lecture for chem and must do bizclub thing. cannot leave the sch till 8? haix.. so tired.. i nid slp le.. zzzz.. niteZ!

2006-07-15T22:59:00.000+08:00

so tired for the past few days. For the past few days, i've been reaching home quite late at nite becoz of cca, discussion, tuitions and stuff. Went to bed straight after bathing and the next day, life goes on again.

Next tues, there will be 2 Alevel exam. One one Bio spa and the other is listening comprehension. So boring..

I guess things between me and my form teacher cant be sort out. It is getting worse and worse than ever. On friday, he called me out and DEMANDED an explanation as to why i didnt pick up his calls and sms. He've been trying to pass a msg to me using somebodi else's month to let me know that i got to explain to him. But i have nothing to explain and i dun tink i nid to explain to him for everything tat i do. So i've decided not to explain. So on friday, he demanded the explanation and i told him that i have nothing to say. And he gave me tat angry look, as though he will flare up anytime. OH man, stop threatening me, i dun even care about him lorz, seriously. in the end, i think he gave up on asking me questions and start toking on other stuffs. Mind him, he is so irritating.

Well, i went to haising's carnival todae. The other time was better than this. There are veri few stalls and it was veri fun frankly. Seriously, if the band doesnt haf any compeition in the afternoon, i wouldnt haf gone in the first place. But it wasnt too bad in term of catching up teachers and frenz. Mrs kang is still as motherly as ever, nice to tok to and so concern about us. lol. Mr yap was busy tuning his robot tat we onli exchange a few lines. Then we headed on VCH to listen to other bands.

The result was shocking. some of the good band didnt get a GOLD as what we've expected. Bands like cresent and asci and us. Nevermind, it is okay, we will work harder for SYF next year :). We are good seriously. Just tat maybe the judges feel that we are still not up to mark yet. So dun be disheartened and strive for better resultS!

Well, mrs chua said something todae that is veri veri true. she told the band that getting silver wasnt something to be ashamed of and it wasnt a failure. It was a stepping stone to overcome. When we get too satisfied with things around us, and we will assume that it will be fine and nothing will happen. This is where we will start to take things for granted. Then when thing suddenly become not good and it is the way u want it to be, then u tend to become veri demoralised and cant accept it. But be rational, if u cant move on and take things as they are, u will forever be demoralised and cannot stand up again. But if u can move on and overcome the stone, U will eventualli be veri sucessful. Remember, every little effort u put in now, will push u one step towards achieving ur goal! :)

I missed band alot. I missed tuba seriously. I missed the honour and glory when i play with the band on stage. I missed the cheering and applause given by the audience. I missed the stage. I missed the smart yellow uniform tat brings us luck. I missed all the sectionals that we haf. I missed the stage that belongs to me. If onli i haf stayed on then........................

2006-07-13T22:21:00.000+08:00

Well, i guess todae is gonna be the last day being the reach rep. lol. I haf decided not to explain to dou dou, so i guess he will give that position to other ppl. Lol. Luckily i still haf my last job todae, tat is to collect the donation. LOL.

Well, started on this maths tuition todae and got quite many of my concepts straightened out. The teacher is veri funny and we haf a veri interesting lesson todae.

During compass todae, we watched a video on Aids. It was about some guys who frequent pubs and clubs very often. In fact, they went there just to flirt with girls or for one night stand. Then there is this guy who haf went to bed so many times that he got infected, worse thing is that he dun even noe which one of them haf transmitted the disease to him. Well, i tink tat's what he deserved to get as retribution lorz. I mean he haf got no moral values at all. Well, same thing to those loose and sleazy gals larz, equally the same, character development wasnt there. There is many other short stories in this video clip, there is oso one on army guys who went to look for prostitutes. They went to bed with these prostitiutes without protection and in the end, they were infected too. Erm, well, i haf got no comment. All i can say is self responsiblilty.

During GP todae, there was a heated arguement on whether the society has becuming more and more superficial than ever. My stand is actualli yes and i argee that the society todae realli is getting more and more superficial. A simple example is, just walk on the street and observe everyone around you. You will understand and notice why would i say this.

2006-07-12T21:59:00.000+08:00

it has been so busy after term 3 has started. Project work, lots of assignment, lots of catching up to do, lots of make up lesson... so on and on.. it is realli veri busy. Everyday is a new day, for battles.And everynite u reach home, it's time to prepare for yet another battle for the next day. Life is so dull and days passed by veri quickly. realli, time realli noes how to fly. There is onli 24 hours each day and everyday, we spend nearly all our morning, afternoon and evening in school. We are onli left with the nite to do all the catching up, absorbing and enlightening. I finally see the toughest period of jc life.

Oh, dou dou is forcing me to give him an explanation by fri, and if i didnt, siokhuey is gonna be sabo. What an evil way he used!! but who cares, siok alrdi asked me not to explain to him. Afterall, i dun think i owe him any explanation.

Alrite, i shall go put my head in front of my desk again. ZZZZZZZZZZZZ...

2006-07-05T22:37:00.000+08:00

oh, todae was the first day of sch. and we are checked for our attire. LOL. luckily my hair now is BLACK! And we are supposed to tie the string of our blouse to the waist level. oh man, it was so old fashioned and ugly! But we have no choice...

LOL, todae is chin yong's birthday. lol. we made him a SPECIAL drink and threw an egg on him. LOL. quite fun larz, i managed to captured some clips of him. LOL.

Well, actualli going to sch is no as bad. at least it kips me occupied and wun be indulging in some form of nonsensical thoughts. LOL. Perhaps going to sch will help me to get over some of my inner emotions and confusion.

I read this somewhere todae..

The Chair Story

A policeman trainee was troubled by some personal issue and this effected his performance greatly. His trainer noticed his change and asked him into the office. He found out the his student was affected by some issues that has happened very long ago, since he was young. Then the trainer asked him to get a chair and hold it up for 90 degree. Finally, the trainee cannot hold it up anymore, so he put down the chair.

Wad's the moral of the story?
The moral of the story is, when you hold up to something for a very long time, it will become overbearing and finally, u cannot bear it anymore. Then, it was at this point of time, putting down is a solution for you.

2006-07-02T23:34:00.000+08:00

i was quite shocked to see a comment given by someone on my blog telling me that "a leopard dun change its spot". this phrase is actuali has a meaning similar to another chinese phrase.

well, actualli i dun quite believe in either both becoz everyone is kind by nature. Sometimes they do wrong things becoz they are misleaded, or fall into temptations or becoz of greed. Wad they nid is trust and encouragement to give them self-confidence and to influence them to go back to the correct path. A leopard does change its spot. Since young, as they grow older, their body parts keep on changing and changing. Just like us, from a baby to an adult, our facial features changed and our body grew. so, trust everyone around u.. =)

2006-06-29T20:26:00.000+08:00

it has been quite awhile since i entered this website to blog. lol. due to time constraint and quite busy preparing for exams. Well, everything is over now and it's time to relax! lol. and cuming up is yet another 5 days of holidays to make up for sacrificing our slp, burning midnite oil when everyone else is comfortably on bed! lol.

After our chinese paper, we skipped chemistry lecture to celebrate our newly-regained freedom. lol. first destination, we (me,siok,lavi,jason,tingyan,jason boxiong) went to safra sakura to have our FEAST! lol. we actuali ate quite little, but in the end, everyone went to take a little portion of DISGUSTING food and we played the number game. Whoever kanna will have to eat the DISGUSTING food. lol. My sympathy to Boxiong, who kanna cheated for eating a SNAIL! lol. Oh man, i was made to eat icecream with salad sauce. it was darn (NOT NICE) lol.. i was good enough by choosing human food lorz.. lol..

After tat, we went to watch SUPERMAN! it was a long movie, but it was nice! lol. i just love watching everything except CARTOONS(exception:sailormoon lol)! Saw quite alot of familiar faces todae in tampines mall. lol. And we haf a good time catching with ex-S301 frenz and crapping. lol. it was nvr bored with them around! lol.

There are a number of things happened last week..

1) Chalet!! organised by S301! it was fun! lol. we haf time sabotaging boxiong for his birthday! lol. we made water bombs with soft drinks, soap, perfume..etc and threw it on him! we even made mudcake for him by digging out the contents in the padan cake and refill it with MUD! and smashed it on his face.! lol. it was nice! Then at around 3am, we walked to central fd court to watch the soccer match and i LEARNED how to play mahjong(but didnt win a single game)! lol. It was definitely fun and enjoyable! oh ya, and we invited quite a number of guest, mostly are ex-S301s. lol.

2) i lost my handphone in library! it was so sadded.. SOB.. the contents inside are so valuable to me and yet, it got LOST! haix. perhaps it was fated.. BUt still i wan it back!! haix.. wad's important is not the phone, but the content.. haix.. and this is like the 3 time i lost my phone and 4th time i replacing a simcard. HAIX..

3) I HATED DOU DOU!! our form teacher! i realli dislike him to the max lorz. He has been sooooooo irritating! Firstly, he kip on calling and msging, but i didnt ans or rly. SEcondly, he is so darn inefficient! Siok's grp sent in their GPP 3 weeks ago and he CLAIMED that he onli seen in last week and he rejected them. Time is running out and he kips on delaying their schedule. and He nv approve GPP even though it is well done. Wad's worst is that he kips on calling siokhuey even though she is not the leader. Worse come to worse, he is so free that he can call siok's and my mother and complaint on us not answering our calls, saying our hairs, so on.. it was realli darn irritating! Sorrie to disappoint you lo, calling my mum is no use, coz my mum will be on my side. and i bet that he has realised this and he even went to call my sis. OH MAN! i realli dun like him! I am raging and soon u will see me explode!!!!! oh well, there's more to it but while blogging about this issue, my anger starts boiling and i am getting irrational and forgetful!!

4)catch up with adora todae.. lol.. i tink it is even better then first 3 months rite.. lol.. And next time when we having any outings, we will call u along =)

5) Cracking our brain juice to come up with another surprise and exciting celebration for chinyong! lol.. what shall we do to him on his big day? lol..

oh well, i am still veri vexed up over dou dou's issue!!! i shall go and cool down first..!!!!!!!

2006-06-23T12:04:00.000+08:00

DISAPPOINTED.. utterly disappointed.. but that was expected wasnt it? I've seen, truly seen, wad in ur heart truly lies. Running away from the problem is not gonna be the solution. I was too silly in the first place.

2006-06-21T00:38:00.000+08:00

baby me!!
baby me again! so cute! lol
most outstanding hat!!!!

2006-06-21T00:28:00.000+08:00

sis tickling me.. lol
award for top in class!
outstanding sister award goes to US! lol..
outstanding award!!!! birthday party in kindergarten!!!!

2006-06-21T00:22:00.000+08:00

sis's bdae, she was teaching me how to cut cake!
lol.. sis trying to play prank on me! look at her sinister's face! lol..
we are once so close. but nw..
look at the cute me! lol

2006-06-21T00:18:00.000+08:00

i forgot where was this taken at.. lol.. pink skirt so cute rite? lol..
one people one family one hong kong. tat's the way that we should be, forever more..... lol..
forgot where oso, but my front teeth were gone! lol..
at dad's shop, grand opening ceremony.. lol.. look at my gorgeous dress! lol..

2006-06-20T21:54:00.000+08:00

dad is flying back to hk for another business trip. he was participating in some international jewel exhibition on dunno which day. and before he left, i was asked to go and look after the shop and help my mum. SO poor me, woke up so darn early this morning and went to help my mum. OH man, it was a real bore. everytime my dad left for other country, business will be veri bad due to my mum's unfriendly attitude and the impatience in her. I was beside her todae and witness how bad she treat a customer. lol. i mean of coz a customer will ask alot of question before buying the jewellery rite? wonder why she is like so pek chek. lol. and i went there for onli 2 plus hours before going to meet kes. it was so boring staying there. lol!!

oh well, dinner was so horrible todae. mum didnt cook but instead, she go and prepare all the ingredient for popiah and wanton. so we had popiah and wanton for dinner. well, the ingredient is like so limited and tasteless. well, might as well dine outside. lol.

i was so tired todae, and tml, i still haf to go for hscband concert. i was ushering!!! lol.. it's going to be fun! lol. realli look forward to it! lol..

oh well, i recalled something before we are migrated to singapore when taking a bath. well, i was still young then, not even 7 years old. but i still remember that few days before flying over to singapore, there was one nite,late at nite, i went to my dad's shop in hk with my mum becoz she sae tat she needed to check onto something and the veri next day, the shop was ransacked and everythings tat were valuable were stolen. and shortly after that, we are landed in singapore. lol. tinking back, everyhting was so dramatic. lol.

i oso recall that my parents nearly divorced back then. they had a veri terrible nite and i remembered that my dad hurted my mum and a veri deep scar was left on my mum's chest. I still remembered tat scene that my mum was sitting beside the bath tub, crying and crying. and tat nite, i slpt with my mum. she asked me 'tszshan, if ur father and i were divorced, who would u wan to stay with?' of coz, being a kid, i dun understand a single thing and just lie there and watch my mum sob through the nite.

oh well! tat nite, i had a dream, and guess who i dreamt? i dreamt of SAILORMOON! lol. SAILORMOON was my favourite last time! woah. well, recalling back, i realli haf a veri veri veri nice childhood in hk. lol.

i still remember the kindergarten that i went in hk, the primary school and nursery. lol. since young, i was the smartest in class. lol. constantly being on stage to get awards. lol. and all the awards were kept safely with my dad. lol. and everytime during the birthday party, we had this compeition whereby every kids must design their own birthday hat. and everytime, my dad will help us to design the most special hat. So every birthday party, me and my sis will be the most outstanding kids with the most outstanding hat. lol. looking back at every photo taken back then, it was like soooooo funny. lol. then there was once, my dad designed a hat for me, it was like 30 cm long and everyone was like looking at me like alien. it was so funny! lol.

oh man, i realli miss hk.

i wan to go back to that piece of land, where i was raised and nurtured.

and i was so looking forward to go back during NOV! i just realli cant wait anymore! lol.

2006-06-20T00:12:00.000+08:00

i saw this dress todae, and i love it soo much. lol. and it look so sweet and nice.. realli love it! lol..

2006-06-19T02:21:00.000+08:00

it has been so long since i last blogged. lol. i am BACKED to update again. For the past few days, many things haf happened and i guess i am realli busy and tired, and i am gettting more and more stressed up. lol.

WEnt back to haising for band pract on fri, i REALLI MISSED BAND PRACT! realli.. though i wasnt playing for alumni, but i was ushering! lol, cannot play oso can help out in other areas rite. haix. i regretted for not playing, i realli miss band pract!

wed changed my views on certain issues. i dunno what's the reasons behind all and i believed that perhaps everything was fated. haix. i oso dunno y.

i guess i am realli those happy-go-lucky sort. it is just luck and tat is wad all i haf. REcalling back, since young till now, i was so well-protected and everything tat are good are given to me. I realli scare tat one day, i will lost everything. haix.

Tonite, someone told me about witnessing something in somewhere. and it was so busy with my things that when this person told me, i was quite calm. and i asked for the details of coz. well, i dunno y, i can respond to this calmly. perhaps i noe tat it was an understanding or perhaps i noe tat i shouldnt react much without clarifying. well, i guess that is no point of why he wanted to lie to me. so i believed.

2006-06-15T01:33:00.000+08:00

Had flag day todae, dunno whether is it considered a sucess or not. coz like quite alot of ppl nv turn up. i shall not mention much about this part. Anyway, the organisation was late for about 45 mins larz. and we were like waiting and waiting and i thot that i mixed up about the day or the time. In the end, it was their mistake larz. lol.

anyway, went mac for breakfast after collecting the tins and went to interchange to ask for donation. after awhile, we went to catch a movie call benchwarmers. lol. it was lame! but i like it. lol. and we went back to interchanger for another round of donation. lol. and me siok and lavi ended at aroud 2.30pm and we got 6 hours of CIP! YEAH!

anyway, the flag selling process was fun. realli. i enjoyed it because no 1, it trains u to be thick skin, and no2, u get to realise what kind of ppl out there. lol.

There were lots and lots of ITE students going for lunch and they alighted at the interchg. and they were kind of erm, rude. 1) they disturb u for nth. 2) They come and donate in exchange for contact no. 3) they sit on the railing and stare at u and i was like so afraid of them.

but when i see that some who look veri intimidating but automatically cum and donate, it realli makes u feel veri veri happie. realli, dunno y. lol.

i didnt slp the nite before, dunno y. realli, i was so tired mentally but i just couldnt slp. in the end i feel so headache in the morning and realli dun feel like going. but no choice becoz receive afew morning calls and i am the one organising it, so must go larz. so in the end todae my side abdomen was so pain larz. one in the morning after breakfast and the other one at nite after dinner. i guess sooner or later sure got apprendix infection one.. haix.

2006-06-13T22:16:00.000+08:00

lol. i changed my blog song!

it is so nice. especially is sang by EASON CHAN!! his voice is sooooo nice! lol.
the song is the theme song for triumph in the skies (衝上雲霄). it is soooooo nice!! enjoy the song pls! enjoy the music! it is in cantonese!

2006-06-11T21:38:00.000+08:00

counting down to my mid year, which is immediately right after june holiday, i am onli left with 2 weeks, which is 14 days, and yet, i haven even start my revision.

I guess i am lost again. No motivation to study, feeling inferior about everything and my brain is not working! Basically, i slacked through last 2 weeks. I guess i gonna flung my mid year.

Realli, there is no energy in me to do work. I am just too tired.. too tired for everything and anything.

how i miss the days when mr yap movtiate us, giving us encouragement. How i miss the bio lessons with mr njoo, with his scoldings that deeply inspired us. Nw, it was all about independence, all about self discipline. I simply hate this kind of life man.

How much i envied poly people. How much i envied them, tat they get to choose what the path they wan, to pursue their interest. How much i envied them......

2006-06-10T22:07:00.000+08:00

i am dead tired! not been feeling good since past few days and onli get to slp near dawn. Oh man.. i needed slp seriously!

went kes's house to stay over ytd. lol. chatted alot and it was more like a out of impulse thing. lol.

too tired to blog... anticipate my next entry. lol.

2006-06-08T01:37:00.000+08:00

KO one is a super nice show!! lol. my new addiction. stayed up late last nite, till about 4 am just to watch that show. oh man, i wanted to stay up till 6, but my sis is like scolding me, so i reluctantly went to bed. lol. well, it was realli nice! not onli is the show lame(just nice for me to watch.lol) but it oso teaches us alot aLOT of principles! realli. in this show, though it's about fighting, but it oso demostrate the cruelty of the world and how sinister human can be. lol. moreover, it oso quote alot of shakespears phrases. lol. it's just too funny. lol.

2006-06-07T02:57:00.000+08:00

the bible once said: how people treat u, depend on how u treat others.

this is true, but the question is, if people dun treat u fairly as how u treat them, does that means that u didnt treat them well?

well, this is not the case

u dun trust someone just becoz they trust u.

similarly, if others dun trust u, does that means that u dun trust them as well?

the trust between 2 people does not just base on this.

if u tink that ur trust haf been betrayed, then u r wrong.

becoz, u r the one who haf given up the trust between the 2 of u, not becoz u've been betrayed

dun ever give up the hard gained trust and u will not tink that u've been betrayed! =)

2006-06-06T23:33:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. well, actuali is kind of obvious.. many things that u did, u thought i dun noe. but, well, i do haf a brain, if u happen to noe. i do haf a pair of eyes, if u happen to see it and i do haf a pair of ears. well, i am not forcing you. and that is no point in doing all these things. Well, wad i wan is honesty, dun u get me? is it so hard to be honest to one another?

it's so hard, so hard, so hard to preserve on. Wad did u ever do to convince me? no, nothing ever.

though i didnt tell u, but i haf alrdi set a date for myself. one more week. tat's the date. 14 june, the date of my class cip activity. convince me with ur sincerity, show it to me. otherwise....there is realli no point.

2006-06-06T21:57:00.000+08:00

Five ways to avoid having cancer and have a healthy lifestyle. (this is by me!! me and onli me)

1) Drink 2 full glass of water every morning when u wake up. at least 500ml (bottle). One glass is not enough to flush down all the toxins in u. This can also improve ur complexion and make u feel awake for the rest of the day! This is proven to be super effective, by me. lol

2) Drink 2 full glass of water before ur dinner. Same logic applies here. lol

3) Eat more fruits such as mango, watermelon and papaya and kiwi and orange. (papaya is a veri veri healthy fruit to rid urself of toxic)

4) ask ur mum to brew soups (tat's wad my mum always do) and have some birdnest once in a while

5) Dun always eat potato chips and snacks. LOl. And haf less bubble tea. Drink waterinstead. lol.

Five ways to improve ur complexion. Rid ur face of pimples!

1) start investing in toner and moisturer after u wash ur face. Some recommended brands : LoreaL, shisedo. whita. LOL

2) anti-pimple cream is a must! apply it all day or pimples will start appearing on your face before ur mensus cum! strongly recommend OXY pimple cream!! DARN GOOD!

3) Drink lots and lots and lots of water. especially for people who slp late at nite. water is the one and onli cure for ur skin! water is even better than a facial mask

4) ExeRcISE! strongly recommend to haf yoga. lol

5) LAUGH! LAUGH! LAUGH!